2011 and beyond…
It’s been a long time since I blogged something and perhaps, many things have clouded my mind since I left Penang. After a little more than a year or so, I have managed to adapt as an agronomist from an engineering background. To be honest, I never worried much about my career. I always had the confidence that I would be able to be rather successful.
Many things have changed in the past year or so. For someone who used to look forward to getting hitch and having kids and growing old together, I am becoming less and less confident about the marriage institution. Hey, don’t get me wrong! I am happy when I see my friends happily getting married. But, finding the ‘one’ proves to be extremely elusive. Women nowadays are hard to please. I have spent much of my adult life trying to make other people happy that I somehow, forgot about myself. My own happiness, my own survival, my own motivations and my own objectives.
Call me naive but I used to think that finding the right person, living happily ever together could be food for the soul. But, reality hits me when money can always nourish the soul in many ways possible. Here I am, supposedly at the prime of my life, wondering whether I will ever find happiness being together with someone.
Something is lacking in my life. And its the simple things in life. Happiness, laughter, sense of humour.
I am lucky enough to have a house now, a good job, loving family… but what is that final ingredient?
I hope 2011 will be a much better year for me! I owe it to myself! I owe it to my family!
God Bless!
